Certain choices carry incredible weight: choice of career, who to marry, when to have kids, moving, divorcing, changing religious beliefs. As these choices are approached, I have noticed a beautiful paradox. With these types of choices I often feel conflicted; as the choice approaches and demands attention my anxiety rises to fever pitch. Why? Because there is the sensation that this could be the very best decision simultaneously with the feeling that it could destroy my life. It is truly a paradox, these choices do simultaneously carry the power to either make us or ruin us and somehow we don't know which it will be.
And, such things cannot remain undecided. The easiest thing would be to try and not make the decision at all. Yet somehow the sick feeling associated with indecision on something important is worse than the worse case scenario of both outcomes.
So in a world where nothing is really certain (you never really feel ready for any of these major things) you take a leap of faith and make a choice. In the end, whether we are happy with our decision down the road depends so much on our commitment and attitude. How hard am I willing to work to make a choice right? If that is what matters - commitment, attitude, and work - then actually the weight of the decision we face diminishes and other decisions emerge. Will I choose to stand by my choices? Will I choose to put in the work and suffering required? In a sense... will I have faith in myself? Maybe that is the most important decision we can make.